For Yogis Who Spin When The Asana Isn’t Enuf…

 

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So much has changed. Rather than resist, I’m going with things. Not a bad plan.A few months ago I felt physically stagnant. My asana practice wasn’t feeling the same and I was sluggish and slow. There was never any rule that I only has to practice asana, but I let all the activity fade away. I’m sure this happens to lots of yogis.

But yoga isn’t about asana. For me it’s about uniting movement and breathing in a way that allows me to be present and mindful. I’m not just talking about on my mat but as way of moving through the world.

A few months ago I went to Rush Cycling in Jersey City. The first class was killer and I felt exhausted and out of shape but also strong and inspired. My tapas was reignited. I fell in love. When I’m on that bike my legs burn, my heart pounds and I’m linked with my breathing in a way that feels dare I say almost transcendent. I know, that’s a whole lotta shit to put on a bike. But it’s true. Spin is yoga.

Not surprisingly, I feel more rounded in my asana practice even though it has significantly impacted my flexibility. Let me say that honestly. My ego has been affected because all the riding has impacted my my flexibility. Frankly, I think this is going to extend the life of my asana practice because I’m not able to hang out in my joints the way I used to. I’m not suggesting that’s a good thing. I’m just talking about the way I used to move. As I get older, I’m beginning to appreciate what my body needs to be strong and healthy. It may not mean slowing down but exploring what it means to be active inside my body. Growing older is a gift.

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You Have More Left Than You Think

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Fear can gently creep inside you. After spin today I realized I didn’t have much left in the tank. That’s a good thing. A few weeks ago I took a class that I thought was going to break me. And it did- but when it was over I still had a lot left. Because I was afraid I wouldn’t finish the class I held back. And for what? Because I’d feel embarrassed or failed? So the fuck what? I wouldn’t have killed me. Well maybe it would have- but I would have been dead, so there you go. I kid. A little. That dream you have? Go after it. That thing you’ve been putting off? Do it. Don’t stop.

Fuck fear.

You have more left inside than you think. Namaste.

Saturday Yoga – Dream Big Like The G.O.A.T.

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“If your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough” – G.O.A.T.

Dreaming big doesn’t have to be extravagant- it may scare you to dream of a day when you don’t wake up stressed. It may be scary to dream of a day when you do something that honors your true self. It may be a dream for you to speak your truth regardless of what others may think.

Let’s all dream big. Let’s sit with ourselves in stillness find out what makes us scared shitless and go after it anyway.

Sunday Yoga

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“I’m in no hurry: the sun and the moon aren’t, either.
Nobody goes faster than the legs they have.
If where I want to go is far away, I’m not there in an instant.”
― Alberto CaeiroThe Collected Poems of Alberto Caeiro

Sometimes it seems easier to not have time. It’s easier to not have time to be healthy. It’s faster to say ‘who has time to meditate or do yoga?’

I was like that. Moving so fast that I didn’t realize that slowing down would give me the time to reevaluate what was important. Sitting still gives me a chance to be in the thick of things even when it’s uncomfortable.

I love waking up much earlier than I need to. Laying in bed just before the sun comes up is precious. It’s time to be quiet with anything that needs attention. Sometimes it’s just nice to be with the silence of my busy Jersey City hood before the activity of the day.

Time…is on my side. Yes it is. 

Namaste y’all.

Saturday Yoga

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I’ve been thinking about my class yesterday at Rikers. After class a woman who had been watching asked me what yoga was all about. I told her that yoga is a way for me to unite my body and breathing so I can be in the moment. I told her that in many ways it saved my life, which is why I wanted to serve by teaching yoga to isolated communities.

‘Really? It saved your life?’ Her tone wasn’t suspicious but curious.

In that moment it really hit me. Yoga had saved and changed my life. Four years ago I was spiritually at rock bottom.

I had been shoving down feelings of loss over someone who had died.

I was avoiding feelings of confusion over my career. 

I was scared to admit that as a full fledged adult I did’t have a fracking clue who I was outside of said career. I was disconnected from myself. 

But yoga helped me connect. Now I get to teacher yoga teachers about teaching yoga inside prisons. I’m teaching yoga teachers about teaching therapeutics, mindfulness and trauma. Yoga led me to opening a massage therapy business. Yoga has given me the ability to speak to groups of people about getting and staying healthy through mindfulness and meditation.

Last week my friend Kathleen and I were catching up about yoga and life (which is thankfully these days the same thing). She said something like once you decide what you want to you just have to reach out and grab it.

I’m not saying that all I did was roll out my yoga mat and magically things rearranged. However, by being mindful and in the moment I had a better sense of who I was therefore making better decisions about following a path that honored me.

I’m grateful that I felt so miserable four years ago. Had I felt even a little bit better I would have taken another job and worked hard everyday without purpose. I know now that everything we do is on our own path to enlightenment if we are seeking a better way.

Happy Saturday.

 

Namaste y’all.

Rikers Island Yoga

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Had a small but mighty class on the fourth floor. Inspired by a class I took the previous evening, I invited everyone to explore moving in slow motion as a way to examine the body and breath. We gently lifted a knee and placed in back down to the floor flowing side to side with Thai Chi like movements. It was playful, challenging and fun. By the end of class everyone was ready for a deep relaxation. Bolsters were placed under knees and blocks were strategically placed for maximum comfort. And then…
Savasana Interuptus.
A CO called for medical and they had to leave for treatment. ‘Michelle’ (not her real name) said, ‘This is the best part! Ugh.’ Her friend new to class asked if they could do it quickly before lining up. But people were already making their way to the door.
‘You can’t do it fast, that’s the point. It takes time to get inside. You’ll see next week.’
I knew they had to dash but as they were rolling up their mats Michelle said, ‘When I get back I’ll do some relaxation on my bed. It’s kinda quiet there.’
Michelle empowered herself. She was going to make time to breathe whether class was happening or not.
That’s yoga. We don’t always get the class we want, but if we’re open we can find what we need.
Awwwww yeah.
Namaste y’all.

Rikers Island Yoga

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The latest from Rikers…

I teach a hot yoga class on Thursday evenings in Jersey City. There were some familiar faces and a few new ones. While balancing I talked about how falling can be wonderful because it gives us a chance to get back up and try again. 

One of the elevators at RMSC has a mind of its own. It doesn’t stop on the 4th floor going up and sometimes the doors have to close five times before it moves. On the fourth floor I asked if anyone was up for some yoga and meditation. Some said no but mostly I didn’t get a response. So I pulled out a mat and took off my shoes.

I asked again.

Class started with two but ended with seven. Wendy was on but she didn’t have her normal hold on the dorm. We had lots of conversation throughout class. That’s one of the things I love most about teaching at Rikers. There aren’t rules. One student talked about how she was feeling every ounce of the weight she’s gained since being there but was smiles and determined to be present. I offered legs up the wall at the end of class and some wanted to stay where they were with legs lifted in the air. While in meditation with eye pillows over their eyes someone said, “This is the shit.” I laughed.

Yoga is the shit. It’s all of it. It’s being comfortable with the uncomfortable. It’s feeling good in relaxation. It’s about being here right now. Students have me their work schedules to see when possible could I start later so more people can come to class.

When I show up to a dorm and hear no to yoga learned to wait. If I’m patient people come. We are all worth second chances. We are all worth third chances.

It was cloudy this morning on the way into Rikers but all smiles on the 4th floor. Namaste y’all. ‪#‎LiberationPrisonYoga‬ ‪#‎YogaEverywhere‬ ‪#‎Yoga‬

Subway Yoga – Blackout: A virtual glimpse into the lives of strangers by Specular

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Public transit and I have rocky but passionate relationship. Though it’s anonymous, you become a member of a temporary community whether you like it or not.
You can make a million a year or live paycheck to paycheck but when you are stuck you are all stuck.
It appeals to my sense of fairness. You get to share collective groans or sneak a smile at someone when something hilarious happens. Occasionally, you witness a meaningful exchange that wouldn’t have taken place save for the fact that two random people are on a train. Last week, a guy in his mid-forties hopped on the train wearing a baseball cap. A older man in his seventies asked, ‘Is that a Brooklyn Dodgers cap?’ It sparked a lovely 5 minute exchange about baseball, college life and history. The older man ended the conversation by saying with a tinge of nostalgia, “Wow…Brooklyn Dodgers. When I saw that hat, I just had to say something.” And just like that the curtain closed. Everyone went back to reading, headphones and staring into space. But for five minutes we were all there with two people and a conversation.
Most of the time I wonder what’s happening with folks who ride the trains. I make up stories. I wonder what people think about me? I think about my ‘commuter community’ most when I tavel to and from Rikers. I try to guess how many people are getting off with me at 21st Queensbridge and taking the Q100 to Rikers. Are they volunteers? Are they visiting family? Do they know what its like to be in jail? 
Mei-ling Wong and the creative team at Specular have created an amazing experience that explores this very idea. The project is called Blackout and it’s on Kickstarter.
Check out a brief description from Kickstarter:

A Documentary Set In a Fictional Environment

Who are these strangers?

The people in Blackout represent a snapshot of a single subway car in New York. Since this isNYC, our group includes an illustrious international cast of underground performers, artists, educators and scientists.

The project began with in-depth interviews with a group of 27 people for our virtual train. Their stories and observations interweave to create a beautiful documentary portrait of a crowd of strangers struggling to find their place in the city.

Today more than half of the world’s population lives in cities. As the world’s cultures are displaced and newcomers flood urban centers, it is urgent that we not just educate ourselves, but empathize with the lives of strangers that surround us. Through immersive technology and raw documentary stories, Blackout shows how one stranded group of city commuters has more in common than they ever imagined.

What makes this project even more dope is the fact that it’s a virtual reality film. As a viewer you get to be on the train and explore 27 real stories. One of the stories is about a yoga teacher who teaches at Rikers Island (hint, hint). She talks about what it’s like have to protect yourself and your soul. I hear she’s cool.

 

All jokes aside, I love what Specular has done. They’ve found a way to take technology and humanize it. So often our experiences with technology take us out of the moment and into the land of self. Blackout does the opposite, it uses VR so people let go of ego and explore another person’s viewpoint. This is revolutionary. In a world that is being ripped apart, a group of creatives are finding ways to draw us closer together.

It gets me thinking….none of get out of this thing called life alive but we have a shot to make it a better trip.

Check out the campaign and get a peak at my thoughts.

Namaste y’all.

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/specular/blackout-a-virtual-glimpse-into-the-lives-of-stran/widget/video.html

Wednesday Yoga- Be nicer to yourself, Stupid

  
I’ve just finished a quiz and I’m making myself crazy about the grade. It’s not about the grade- it’s about the learning. I know this intellectually but sometimes my Ego takes her own damn time catching up. Meanwhile she spreads her vicious gossip and toxic thinking. Such a bitch. 
The funny part is- I was listening to Pema Chodron on my bike ride to school and she was answering a question about giving into cravings or desire. The issue isn’t the craving- it’s the value that we assign to the craving. Good. Bad. Smart. Stupid. 

Judgement, judgement everywhere and not a kind thought to think. 

The grade doesn’t matter. The fact is I learned a shit ton (Yes, that’s a scientific term) about the endocrine system. And I’m really happy.

I hope I got an A. 

Hey- one step at a time. 

Namaste y’all 😉